Friday, February 25, 2011

Job Whining

I think I've moved from being ok with my job to only caring enough to not want to get fired. I feel like I'm on the verge of hating my job. I don't think it's the job or the people I work with. I think it's me getting tired of being at this job. Made it's just the depression making everything suck. I don't know. I just wish I had a job I loved.

That's all I got in me for today.


Monday, February 21, 2011


Last week I was fighting depression. I'm still fighting off black thoughts but I have several projects I'm working on off and on to keep me busy. So I'm coping but haven't been in the mood write posts or anything else.

I've been working on gathering info about getting a blanket license for the college's film club. I've also been working on a proposal for Haven's, the gay straight alliance at the college, first event.

Oh, I haven't written about what happened. Ok, so remember the film club and Haven were going to have screen two movies for Haven's Groundhog's Day Coming Out event. The event was canceled by college administration. They said that the film club was screening movies in violation of copyright laws. In fact the film club has been doing this unaware. Now it could just be a coincidence that when the LGBT club wants to show some movies is when they decide to say we can't show any movies due to copyright concerns but somehow I doubt it.

So now the film club can't show movies which is why I'm working on the blanket licence. It won't let us show any movie, only movies from a list of independent distributors. There are still a lot of movies we can show from them that will be worthwhile.

Besides those things I've mostly been randomly reading stuff online and just trying not to feel too depressed.

That's all for today,

Tuesday, February 15, 2011


It's one of those days again. I'm going to try to have something for tomorrow but no promises. Sorry.

Monday, February 14, 2011

Feeling a little sick. Saturday's and today's posts will be up tuesday. --Gilly

Friday, February 11, 2011


Mood: Feeling mostly fine. The other day I was walking home feeling good, thinking about this story I want to write which is really the back story to this other story I want to write when I saw a McDonald's bag, side split, ketchup packets spilling out, by the side of the road and suddenly had a flash of a dream I had months ago. This was not a good dream. That day I woke up and started crying because what happened in the dream was horrible. I wrote down the dream but didn't post or talk about it here. I've pretty much put it out of my mind but when I saw that bag which looked like the bag from my dream I didn't feel fine anymore. I was a little shaken but I kept walking and after a while I started to feel better and mostly put it out of my head again. Until I saw another McDonald's bag and it all came back again. It was a little easier to put it away the second but it still bothered me.

Health: Monday and Tuesday I had nosebleeds. I just had one a few minutes ago. Might be nothing but I want to make a note of it.

Happenings: I went to the College Film Club meeting yesterday. You may remember I mentioned the Film Club partnering with Haven for a Groundhog Coming Out Event. Well it was canceled by the college administration due to copyright concerns. I'm giving them the benefit of the doubt and accepting this as an unfortunate coincidence.

Writing: I wrote about a page and a half.

Media: I watched Assault Girls last night. It was a good but short movie.


Tuesday, February 8, 2011


Mood: I feel good right now. I did have an unexpected crying jag on Saturday. It was triggered by a sentimental commercial featuring a dying father. The thing I am most afraid of and that I know will one day come true is losing my parents. I've seen that commercial before but for some reason when I saw it this time I started crying. I didn't feel sad or depressed but I still couldn't stop crying for almost twenty minutes.

Happenings: I've started cooking healthier foods. Last night I tried making sushi rice again following this recipe from Alton Brown. I cut the recipe in fourth to yield a cup of rice. I used long grain rice instead of short grain. I followed the recipe but the rice came out a touch under cooked. I tinkered with the sauce that coats the rice, adjusting the suger and salt amounts. The rice tasted ok but I will have to play with it a little more to perfect it.

Also I stir fried some vegetables to top the rice with. While the rice was cooking I cut some red bell pepper, yellow onion, broccoli and a carrot. The bell pepper I cut into strips. I cut two thin slices of onion which I cut in half and separated the half rings. The broccoli I cut into small peices and the carrot I cut in half and then lengthwise into thin sticks.

I heated about two tablespoons of oil in a pan with a little garlic power for flavor. Once the pan and oil were sizzling hot I added the bell pepper and onion. I cooked them for about a minute before adding the rest of the vegetables along with some stir fry sauce(yes I cheated with a store bought sauce but I didn't have time to try to make my own sauce). I cooked the vegetables for about two or three more minutes stirring a couple of times to ensure even cooking.

The rice went into a bowl and the vegetables went on top straight from the pan:

So to recap, the rice was just a touch under cooked and the flavor was off but still good. I was very happy with how the veggies came out though.

Media: I finished an archive binge of Head Trip. It's a funny weird comic. Most of it is slice of life strips that sometimes comment on pop culture. Between that are short arcs of "The Adventures of Chemo Kid and Emo Kid" which are just awesome.

Writing: I've had a minor breakthrough on how to tweak a story that has been stalled for a several months.


Sunday, February 6, 2011


Ironic isn't it that right after I mention that I was able to make my goal of five posts in a week, circumstances keep my from posting all the next week. Mostly it's been the freezing weather driving me home early and keeping me away from posting. I had a post written Wednesday but lost it to a system freeze and I don't want to try to rewrite it. My mood has been fine all week.

Anyway look at these:

I made sushi rolls!! Admittedly they're a little sloppy and the rice isn't quite right but I made them.

I've wanted to try my hand at making sushi for a while now but never got around to trying. Yesterday I boiled some rice for to add to a package of scampy flavored noddles. I had some left over and the thought popped into my head to make sushi rice at least. I looked up a recipe on my phone and found one from Alton Brown of Good Eats, which is my favorite cooking show. The only thing I needed for that recipe was rice vinegar. I headed over to H-E-B picked up the rice vinegar, a set of measuring spoons, measuring cup and a knife set. I also got a red bell pepper, cucumber and avocado to put inside the roll.

I made the rolls the way I've seen and read to make them to the best of my amateur ability. They weren't as tightly rolled as they should have been and the rice was a little mushy do to my overcooking it just a touch. Overall I think it's a good first effort but needs improvement before I can say I can make good sushi.