The guy from Friday called me yesterday. He said he thought he had a missed number from my phone and was calling back. Since I didn't have his number this is obviously an excuse to call me so I would then have his number. I was busy at the time so we didn't talk long.
I'm debating on whether or not I should call him back. On one hand I feel like I'm in limbo while transitioning. On the other hand someone expressed desire for me. I'm torn between wanting to be wanted and feeling like I can't or shouldn't become involved with anyone.
What makes this doubly hard for me is that I'm not good on the phone. It feels awkward to talk to someone on the phone. Then add in my social awkwardness and it seems an impossible task. How can I possibly ask him what he wants from me and tell him that I'm transgender?
And I will tell him, if I call him back, because if I did't and we hit it off then later I would be torn between telling him and possibly ruining what we had or stop transitioning. I know me and in that situation I probably would stop transitioning.
I haven't even decided to call him back and already I'm planning out our relationship but I need to take the long view. If I don't take the long view, if I get bogged down in the present, I am likely to make quick, easy and horribly bad decisions.
I think I'm more confused now than when I started writing this.
Then there's the fact that I'm not sure of what I want.
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